Zeon

WOW~~

2011-02-06T01:08:00.000-08:00

Well, it is not World of Warcraft.

Being in Chinese New Year is always fun and enjoying. Today is the 4th day of the Chinese New Year. For the past few days, they were awesome as I got to see my ex-classmates (still looked the same), relatives and FRIENDS~~ woots. And the most important thing was my family members. We had a family reunion dinner on Chinese New Year Eve (?) and it was great~

This year, I got a new handphone Nokia C6 as my birthday present from my elder brother. I know it is way too early to get a birthday present though. HAHA

Come back to "today". I led worship in English Service and I thought I was gonna be a dead meat but through God's grace and mercy, it went out well. Hallelujah~~ Later, X-Zone youths went to Jonathan, Victor/Trini, Elaine/Eric, Alvin and Eyen places. It was a good day~ At Eyen's place, we played a game and I was a KILLER! For three times they almost got me but they didn't and I KILLED A LOT! RRRROOOAR~ hahaa....

Anyway, I still need more prayer warriors for me as I am going to serve on MV Hannah II. Please gimme your name and commit yourselves to pray for me. I NEED IT, Thank you~~

Blessed Chinese New Year~~
Zeon

Well Well~~

2011-01-21T04:16:00.000-08:00

Time flies and it has been half a year I didnt update this blog~ huhu~~

It has been a really good year (2010) and I have once again gained more knowledge in my life and in God! Wow~

If I have to sum up last year with one sentence, it will be
>> It has been uber good since God is working in my life! <<

I believe the past has gone and the new has come, dont you agree?
Now, I would like to tell you, you, and you and whoever read this, that I am going to continue my service for the Lord on MV Hannah II!

I believe some of you may ask what is MV Hannah II right? haha
It is a Gospel Ship sailing around Asia, woohooo~~

Well, I will be serving for one year, hopefully I can do that in God's strength and grace.
Still I need some supports. Yeah, morally and spiritually.

For my non-Christians friends, I hope that you all wont forget me and if you want to find me, please email me, I really appreciate some updates from you guys. I will surely miss you~

For my Christians brothers and sisters, I need your prayer support! A LOT~~~
If you are willing to be my prayer warriors, do u mind to tell me? in email, fb or leave a comment over here. I really need it. It is best to have 50 as a minimum. So, remember me in your prayer, will ya?

=)

De-rusting~

2010-05-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

After such a LOOOOONG time, I am going to derust this blog again..

With my friends leaving one by one either to further study or NS (few only), even though some are staying here for F6, my heart feel kind of sad because they are leaving for a moment. Plus, they are going to have a different lives outside SDK and I am worrying if they would able to know Christ. After all, I really pray that they will.

Serving in SBC as a staff is much enjoyable, with a lots of work, lots of pressure and lots of worries. Well, it is not easy for me to cope with all these things as I am a newbie you may say =) All the things that I have to deal with have never set a foot into my experience but a newbie is always forgiven for doing wrong =p so I have to continue to learn and strive for the best. Anyway, it is hard in conclusion but the MOST AWESOME BEST thing is that God is always showing Himself through this stage. You can never deny this as this is the best thing a homo sapien (credit to Cason) can get in his life. =)

Continue on, it may seems to be a hard journey but what is going to come is all for my benefits. Sinning against God is happening in this stage as well, quite frequently. It is such a shameful thing to recall back. I have failed Him so many times even though I "repent". I am still in the process of repenting, pray that God will have mercy on me and give me strength to do it. I am really wondering how could the King of Kings loves a human being like me, who is so filthy and detestable to Him. I am such a small and minor thing among His creation, yet He loves me and showed His love through His death for me on the cross.

I'm forgiven because you were forsaken,
I'm accepted, you were condemned

Amazing Love, How can it be
That You my King would die for me?

Anyway, still, I know that I am in the right path and I think soon, I might be jumping unto the next path and have a harder road to go, but after all, let the Master of Time to decide it and lead me unto the next road. :-D

The Road So Far...

2009-12-21T01:49:00.000-08:00

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down on green pasture, He leads me besides quiet water."

This verse is so nice that in whatever circumstances that I am in, the Lord will always point out the road for me to take, because He knows the place that fits me perfectly. It is good.

"He will guide me in path of righteousness, for His name's sake."

Yes, for a Christian, we are to walk in the way of light, just to bring glory and honor to God. The Lord will let us rest before we continue on our journey. So, it is for us to know that, rest is not for us to be lazy, but it is for us to walk a further distance.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me."

Yes, the Lord never promise us that the road will be a straight and trouble-free, but He does promise us that, we will eventually win over all of the obstacles through the grace and power of His. Indeed, what we are to fear when we know that the Lord, who is omnipower and creates everything, is with us? Nothing except He Himself.

"You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You annoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."

Again, the Lord will provide our needs and even rest when we are in trouble. The action that the Lord annoint us is so encouraging that, we, are little yet precious to His eyes. Of course, when we are with God, good things tend to happen more because God will bless us. Lastly, I will surely worship Him and hugging His feet in His house, forever.

This is how I read this passage, and I have to keep remind myself that I have to be with the Lord because things of the world entangle us so easily. I still have quite a long race to run on, I just can not stop when Adam, Abraham, Elijah, King David, Peter, Paul and Jesus keep on cheering for me, but I suppose a rest is ok. =P

God's Faithfullness

2009-12-20T04:41:00.000-08:00

Well well, it has been quite a long time for not posting anything uphere. You know, it is because of SPM and erm, laziness.

In Isaiah 53:6, it is quoted so nice that we sin, because of our own sinful nature and selfish wills. Yes, indeed, most of the time we sin is due to our own benefits and we neglect others' feelings. It has been some weeks since I repeated the same mistake which I has promised to God not to do it.

For the last few times, before I confessed to God, I felt total darkness and isolated from God. It was only after I has confessed to God, that I started to feel His warm and holy presence that unveiled all my sins. But for the recent time, it was different. He was there. It felt like He was just sitting next to me and waiting for my 1st word. I felt so ashamed that, even I promised Him but I failed. Even though after I had confessed, I felt much guilty and unworthy to be loved by Him, yet through many differents but obvious ways, He told me that He had already forgiven me and still, He would be with me to strengthen me so that I might gain victory over trials, temptations and tests, through Him.

It is so good, to know that there is a God that loves me so much. He makes me feel secured and no matter what, I still have a hiding place to go to. =)

Reject or Accept

2009-10-19T22:44:00.000-07:00

It is a simple question: Do you believe that there is a God, who created the heaven and earth, and all in them, and you for a purpose? If you do believe, why don't you try to find out about Him? If you do not believe, then you would say that this world existed by itself, aren't you?

If you reject Him, He will reject you. If you accept Him, He will accept you. Be a wise man to decide which is theory, belief and truth.

"I will not let anyone escape from my punishment. For those who do not believe. I will be cruel to those who know but do not accept it. I will be much cruel to those who believe but do not accept. I will be cruel and no mercy on that Day. If I spare them and let them escape, then I would let everyone to escape, but I would not. Woe to them. But for those who believe and accept, I will not even remember their little mistakes and I will award them. The Day is coming and you have not much time left. Be wise and fear Me."

How would you answer?

2009-10-03T05:10:00.000-07:00

If an early Christian said to you, "I have paid for an ultimate price so that the Way of the LORD could be passed down to you, so what is your story?" and how would you answer? Are you going to answer, "Not much, I have wasted it." ?

If the LORD asked you on the last day, "Why didn't you run the race with perseverance and give up in the half even though I had proved to you that I was with you and my grace was sufficient to you?" and how would you answer? Are you going to answer, "Well, I like the world more than you."?

If the LORD asked you on the last day, "Why did you say that you believe in me yet you would sit and stand just an non-believer?" and how would you answer? Are you going to answer, " I had done my best, what do you expect?" ?

Family Camp

2009-09-24T00:08:00.000-07:00

SBC Family Camp entitled Fireproof Your Marriage was held from 19-22 Sept. It was a nice and wonderful camp. As a big family, we had fellowship and knew each other more, and it was good.

For the first day, we learnt to make kite. For my group, it was, erm, quite nice. We managed to finish it, even though we were the last group. :p We had a girl who didn't join our youth in our group, she was Gabrielle. And our group leader was Louis and he was not there that night due to music practice.

For the second night, we made "wan tan". It was the first time I get myself involved in doing this. Well, thanks to Louis, he prepared most of the things and we did what we were told, obediently. When it came to the time to cook, I and Brandon were the chosen one to go in since youth leaders were not allowed. Well, we did it pretty well but we were out of time for cleaning. (at least we were not the only group)

For the third day morning, we played One Way. It was quite torturing. Someone put ice with flour into my pocket and gosh, the flour stick to my pant and I had to "unstick" it during the bath time. Well, I was one of the best flour collector for the game. :) Something funny was that Min Jiang was being desolated from his group and he joined our group. He trusted me though since I was the last in my group. :)

When it came to night, they made dumplings. I was not there since I went from my mum's uncle for his 90th birthday dinner at SRC. However, I tried that once and when I was back there, everything was done, even though you could make for the second round. I ate three since I was full and they were not bad though.

When it came to the last day, we practiced for the Gala Dinner presentation at Kenalanmu Restaurant. Of course, we cleaned up the camp site as well. The boy's toilet was dirty and we had to clean it up too. After everything we went home and met again at night

At night, I sat beside Ming Jiang and of course my sister. The stage was, kinda small for our youth group to present, so we squeezed and I could not raise my hand during the presentation. It was nice. I remembered I joined once SBC Family Camp way before I accepted Christ. During that time, it was boring to me, but now it was a ton difference. It was really amazing on how you viewed your life.

Youth Sermon

2009-08-23T03:45:00.000-07:00

Well, 23/8 youth sermon was done by sis. Vanessa. She said she prayed a lot what to preach about as she was given a free title. She had chosen the theme "wait upon the Lord". It was nice and it hit me, like a bullet hit my thumbnail, which means a very low possibility to impact me.

The sermon was based on the verses which were 1 Kings 17:1-9. As she spoke on how should we wait upon the LORD, it came upon me that, God had asked me to wait Him but my faith was low. My calculator was lost and whenever I decided to buy, my heart was no peace. So, He said that I should be waiting as He would return the calculator to me. And for twice I was down and prayed for encouragement, they came on the next day. I had no more reason to deny that God wanted me to wait.

Till this time, it became more obvious that it was definitely His will. As Vanessa said, if we would to follow Christ, we would to suffer, maybe not because of our sins, but because of others'. It was just like prophet Elijah had to suffer because of Israelites worshipped idols Baal. It hit me 100% as my lost of calculator was not of my fault. And now, I know that what I should do and how to wait upon the LORD, as the Bible says, "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength", Isaiah 40:31. The LORD is really a a living God. Praise Him!

Meaningful weekend

2009-08-23T02:52:00.000-07:00

On 21/8, I joined the Student Leader Camp on the BERC. This time, it was great blessing that we could have bro. Kevin with 6 V.I.P. came to our midst. They were Pastor Bill, Vanessa, Grace, Connie, Joseph and Dong Hoon. On the first night, everything was great and message was impacting. I slept early that night and others were still had not "shut down" yet. And the next morning, I seems to be the last to wake up. Hoho

After having a short time of morning exercise, we had bro. Joseph to lead us in the devotion. It was not bad and after that, we had our workshop on worship-leading. We were glad to have Grace to share with us for the section. When it came to afternoon, it was GAME time!!!!!

It was counter-strike based game. It was copyrighted by bro. Joshua. It was really really good, exciting and fun. It was not terrorist anymore, but it had a more specific name, "Abu Sayap". Lol, it was a good name also. We managed to won in the beginning, but when comes to the end, who cared, we all went insane and even friendly fired!

After cleaning up and bathing, and of course dinner, we had another message time, it was by bro. Kevin this time. It was good and touching, even some of the parts I did not quite agree, but who know, it may be a new revelation from God about His word, so I gladly accepted it since it was not out of the context. The most troubling question he asked was, "if God did not bless you, would you continue to serve, just because you are His son?". I reflected back, and I found that my answer was based on two verses: "Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength" and " I can do everything through him who gives me strength". They were taken from Nehemiah 8:10 and Philippians 4:13. The answer was that as long as I could do things that could make Him smile, then I would continue to do that. And all I really wish is that, be with Him. Even though I have to suffer again, as long as, He is with me. It is well with my soul.

On that night, when I was about to sleep after eating Mamee Hot Cup, bro. Kevin asked me to help Him in preparing a Cantonese version of that sermon, as the next day he was going to preach on SBC Cantonese Worship. It was a nice time and even Joshua came to help us. Indeed, I could say that the LORD will never let you suffer more than He wants you to and He is ready to help. It was really a nice camp. Every year since I had come to Christ, there would be a significant mark.

2007-Lost Camp
2008-Life Game
2009-Student Leader Camp

What's more is that, it is only the starting of the holiday this year, I could not imagine how much more there will be God's self presence with me. Hehe. Hallelujah!

When I am down

2009-08-13T00:50:00.000-07:00

Yes, Christians do experience "down" in their spiritual lives. Just as Sarah, the Lord had said that Abraham would be a father of many, yet she did not pregnant until 90 years old something. When the Lord said it once again, she laughed. It was hard to keep on when the Lord promised you something, yet you seems to never see its shadow.

My calculator had been stolen. Yet, the Lord reassured me that my calculator would be returned and I need not to buy a new one. Few weeks passed by, nothing happened. During the few weeks, I was like being insulted of my faith and some make fun of the name of Christ and the Bible. I was upset and annoyed.

In prayer, I told the Lord that I could not continue on, He had to help me and encourage me. On 5/8, I read on a psalm that saying the Lord would avenge for those who keep His commandments and please Him. Just as the next day, those who did those terrible things to me were punished by teachers. Amazing and Halleluyah.

As one more week went by, nothing happened too. I was discouraged because as a Science Class student, calculator is just like how a driver needs a car. Again, I told the Lord that I needed His encouragement and help. This time, a brother of mine, whom had not been for our youth service a long time, told me that he would be joining the youth worship that week on the next day. I could not believe it. I had been praying for him and encouraging as well as persuading him to go, but he kept on refusing me. But when the time that the Lord had chosen come, you just gotta believe it, even it seems to be impossible.

Whenever one is down and seeks God's help, the Lord will surely be with him and encourage him, if he is willing to listen to the Lord and offer his life to the Almighty One. Halleluyah!!!!

Short Mission Trip

2009-08-05T04:16:00.000-07:00

Our destination of this short mission trip was to Kampung Paris, Lahad Datu. After travelling roughly 2.5 hours from Sandakan, we reached there around 1.00pm. We had our churchmade lunch. The lunch included tuna paste, bread, wateremelon, and cake. They were nice and I ate a big piece of watermelon, which fill my stomach with a lot of water.

Later, we played some games and they were really ice breakers. There was a play by Mun Kheng, Joshua and Crystal. Even though Joshua laughed during the play, it was good and took a lot of effort after all. Our worship was good too as we enjoyed ourselves.

Then, message was given by Eyen and I believed it had sank into heart of those whose hearts were opened to the Lord. Then, we had been distributed into 6 small groups to have a little discuss and pray for each other.

At last, we took a group photo and our purpose, which was to encourage borthers and sisters in Kampung Paris Baptist Church, was carried out. Thanks and glories be to God who is our guidance and shepherd. I also want to give thanks as we need nothing else during the trip. Indeed, He is really Jehovah Jireh.

Keeping on for Christ.

2009-08-01T04:32:00.000-07:00

It is always a discouragement for me when my friend keeps on saying that he is a Christian yet always doing things that are not right. I know I have no right to judge but it just discourages me to keep on for Christ. Yet, God is good after all, He keeps on giving me encouragement from my friends and assurance that what I am doing are right.

I found a verse and I really love it. Jesus said, " If you love me, you will keep my commandments." (John 14:15). This is a great encouragement to me that I have to keep on. May the Lord's kingdom come and His will be done on earth, as it is done in Heaven.

It is near, is coming.

2009-07-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

It is near, is coming.
O people, listen to me!
You have plotted against my servants
But I will be upon them,
For I am the Lord their God.

It is near, is coming.
This will surely happen
Before my days
And you will reign.

Listen to me!
I will surely forgive those who confess to me
And my servants will help them
For I cherish them in my heart

But for the stiff-necked,
I will judge them according to their own scale
Surely none of them will be able to stand before me
I will punish them, severely

The Day is near, is coming.
I will not let those wicked unpunished
I will use my right hand to save those
Who place his hope and trust on me

The Day is near, is coming
Repent and believe,
And you shall be saved

Amazing Grace

2009-07-15T03:04:00.000-07:00

It is really through grace that we have been saved. We are saved, through faith, not by work, so that no one can boast. Am I boasting? I do not know, if yes, please forgive.

It was EST time, and I managed to share Gospel to a friend of mine. I had been praying to God to give me someone to let me share the Gospel in school. God had listened and answered. I shared the salvation of God. When it came to the time to make decision, she decided to accept Christ, yet she said that her parents would not let her to go to church and she had no Bible in her house. So, I gave her a website to read the Bible online the next day.

I did not know whether or not she will continue to grow in the Lord or get astray. Everything is on God's hand, I can only submit to Him. Of course, I will continue to pray for her and hopefully, one day she will be able to go to the house of the Lord to worship the one and only God. Amen.

I am so jealous!!!

2009-06-11T06:54:00.000-07:00

I know it is really super duper good to dwell in the Lord, but it is so hard in these modern days. Many factors come before us just to distract us from dwelling in Him and this is because, we human have put pleasures of our body above Him.

Now then I understand how easy were the seers, judges and prophets in olden days to dwell in the Lord than nowadays. I believe they did not have electronic appliances to distract them. If I was born in the olden days, how good was it. Dwelling in the Lord is a really sweet moment, you can talk to Him and be with Him, just you and the Lord. I really wish I was in the olden days.

But I know, God let me be in this modern age must have His own good and pleasing plan. Even though I may not fully understand, but I will trust in Him. I know it is hard, but Jesus was tempted in the very ways we are now, but yet blameless. Lord, I can not wait for the day when I am in Your arms!!!

At Last....

2009-06-10T15:15:00.000-07:00

I used to fall into the same trap again and again. I knew I should stop doing it as the Lord would be sad and could not serve Him with that, but I kept on failing. I prayed to God many times for strength and wisdom and self-control, but I never succeed. Only until this moment, I did it. It was so wonderful and sweet that you could please the One you love and make Him smile. I do not know whether I should fall into the same pit or not, but I know, God has made a way for me to pass through it.

When I was listening to the song "I am coming back to the heart of worship". I saw that I was in a place like there was nothing. I knew who I was looking for. I was looking for Jesus, and what was on my hand was a little, tiny and mini gift box. Its size was just as big as a dice. Well, I saw Him later, I had nothing to give Him except the gift, but I was too ashamed to give Him. I turned my body and said that the gift was too small and it was not right to give Him. But He opened His palm and asked to me to give Him. I refused. He kept on asking me for it. At last, I gave Him. I kneel before Him and cried.

I could not imagine that how much love did He have to do so, it was so wonderful and sweet. I hugged Him and He said everything was okay and needed not to worry more. And that is how beautiful God is. I know His plan for me, and I have decided to do it, even though it costs me everything I have.

Listen, Human!

2009-06-09T04:28:00.000-07:00

How long do you need Me to tell you?
How many times do you need Me to show you?
How wicked are you
You know it, yet you have done it

Before the day is here
Bow down and confess
And I shall forgive you
Through My Son's blood
If you believe and are sincere

Be clean and righteous
For I have chosen you
To accomplish My plan
Which is perfect and good

Equip yourselves with My Word
And meditate it all day long
So that you will know Me
And the sign and people
That come from Me

Listen to the Holy Spirit
He will give you all you need
And guide you through the path
He will open your hearts and mind
If only you pray for His presence

Look, the day is near
Read My Word and focus on it
So that you will not be caught
When you are unaware and unprepared

Understanding

2009-06-07T08:26:00.000-07:00

Now I fully understand the thing I saw before. I once saw that I was hugging the Master's legs. I know what does it mean now, it does mean that I was like a lame, I could not walk boldly to share and spread the Gospel.

But when I had fully equipped myself with boldness and love, I ran out to spread the news. When I saw that I was sitting, it should mean that I was about to give up and did not care the mansion or feast anymore. Yet, the Master Himself will show Himself to me and pick me up. All we need to do is wait, as in Philippians, it says that strength will come to those who wait upon the Lord and I can do everything with the One who strengthen me.

BREAK FREE

2009-06-04T21:51:00.000-07:00

It was a great experience and time to be in there... I was quite sad as my friend did not want to join it.

Well well, the activities in the camp were good and thrilling. There were a lot of rest time. They were good, as they enabled us to refresh ourselves and have a fellowship time. I enjoyed it. The American team was so nice and faithful to God, they travelled a great distance just to do the work of God. One of them, Brother Nick had fallen ill but thank God that He himself would heal him.

The worship section was good as we had Brother Jonathan to lead us. He was a bit crazy but who cares, we enjoyed it. He hurt his leg but it was no big deal to him. He had lifted up the atmosphere in the camp. If he was not there, then this camp was just imperfect.

Matthew, or we called him Matt, was good in preaching. He tried to use simple words so that we could understand what he was trying to say. I believed his messages had impacted a lot of people and changed them, with the help of Holy Spirit.

Brother Sean, even though he spoke a few, but when in free time, he approached many campers and talked with them. He was also doing all the projector work, not bad for him.

My group leader, Colin, travelled from Tawau to Sandakan and he led our group well. Being an assistant, I had nothing to help out for he had done the most of them. When he was sharing his testimony, I saw a man in white poured out oil onto him and when the oil reached the ground, it spread to every other group members.

On Thursday morning, I saw something. I saw the four of American team were like soldiers, with the Armour of God, in the battlefield. The were marching forward in a horizontal line. The one at the most right-hand side fell down suddenly and the other three marched forward a step and stopped. The one at the most left-hand side was hurt by an arrow on his left leg. But he seems to feel no pain and remain standing. They were defending themselves but they could not help the one that was lying. It was amazing that none of the arrow hit the lying soldier. When the arrows stopped, a man in white came and healed the lying one, and they started to march forward again, yet the healed man was always a step behind the other three.

There was a theft in the camp. It was sad. Even I did not know who was it or who were they, but I believed God was sad to see this happened, yet He let it. There must be a lesson for us to learn from. I thank God for everything, I love it, I love smores, and I love You, God.

Take note.

2009-05-22T23:29:00.000-07:00

How wicked are you, Satan
You have set hidden traps
For human to tremble
You have dug bottomless pits
For human to fall into

How stupid are you, human
You have listened to the desire of body
And willingly tremble and fall
Don't you fear the Lord your God
Who created you and died for you

How sad are You, dear Lord
When you see the human
Created things that You most favor
Fall and stray away from You
Even though You have warned them not to

How happy are You, O God
Even there is only one human
Willing to listen and follow You
Surrendering all and trust in You
Though he know nothing but You

Great is the name of the Lord
And His name will be glorified
And made know to all nations
In a time of unexpected
Therefore, many would not be able to stand

Update

2009-05-13T03:03:00.000-07:00

Some exam papers had been returned and the marks, not bad of course. I was just thinking that our class was special, the highest and the lowest was a great distance. Who knows what happen to our class...

There had been some time before posting this and I felt much burden as being a teenager, there were just too many things you had to do and catch up. So, all I could do was just trying to keep it up to the world standard. It was hard, and I felt it was really too much, and I could not stand it anymore. One thought came out from my mind, and I asked Jesus, "How was your teenager life, was not it hard?". And immediately, I thought I heard a voice saying, "I dwelt in the Words of God and I cared no worldly things."

I was speechless, standing in awe and amazing...

Add Maths Paper.....

2009-05-07T01:09:00.000-07:00

Add maths was suppose to be an easier subject compare to the 3 science subjects, but today I was proven that I was wrong...

In the three science, I still managed to save sometimes before times end, but today paper was that, I had filled in some random answers so that I really finished it... It was really so hard...

But it was okay after all, you know, all that I need is the high marks in education, even though I required some, but the most important is that, I learn that I could not do something easy than this without God. It is easier not harder, without God, even something easy you would fail to accomplish it. Do not believe? You will say Amen when you experience that.

How fool are those
Who think that they can do everything
With their useless strength and plans
They shall accomplish nothing but failure

How blessed are those
Who lean on God, on every circumstances
Even they could easily handle themselves
They shall accomplish more than they could

Miracle or coincidence?

2009-05-04T23:14:00.000-07:00

Well, chemistry and biology exam were just behind my mind now... There is still physics paper... Haiz... I did not study well for the 2 past paper yet I did "shoot" some answers in and it turned out to be correct. Amazing? I knew it was not coindcidence, I knew it, I just could not tell you how.

Our lives are really full of surprise from God if you try to notice it. If you could really trust everything in God and do your part, remember, trust here means even you are doubting, but you are willing to do, then I will say that God will put a miracle before our eyes. Do not believe? You will believe when you experienced it.

Indeed of trusting God, people keep asking God to miracles according to their wills yet God will make a lot of miracles before your very eye if you wait patiently with trust.

How wicked is this generation
They keep on asking for miracles
But none will be given to them

To those who wait me
Obediently and pleased me
They would see miracles before their eyes
Yet people of this world could not see that
Because they are blind
And they do not know

Those who see miracles yet doubt
Will be cursed, far more worse
Than those who ask for
For they see, they do not believe

Blessed are those who see and believe
Those who have not see yet believe
Will be blessed much more
For their faith is the miracle
That I have made

The time is near

2009-05-03T03:04:00.000-07:00

Ever wondering when would be the last day knocking your door? Brothers and sisters, all would I say is that it is near, indeed it is near. If you read what is prophesied by Jesus in the Gospels of Matthew and Luke, you will see that the signs are actually appearing.

The earthquake and war have just happened, yet the plagues also happen. Lord Jesus' words are so true that they happened according to what He had said. What we are waiting is just the happening of something to the moon, sun and star, plus terrible things come from the sky. Do you notice about that?

The trumpets will be blown soon, only those who read on God's words will know how to face it with faith and courage, for Jesus is Emmanuel. Who would be standing when Jesus return? Christians and churches are meant to be His bride. He is holy, so only those who are holy and obedient would be able to be called His bride. Meditate in God's words and ask for the Spirit of Wisdom to come upon you, so that what God says would be made known to you.

The Lord's time is near
Who will stand before Him
Who will be called the faithful servant
For there would be few only to be chosen

In a time of a half and a decade
Witnesses will rise and proclaim
They will tell about the greatness of God
But men of this world have been ruled
By the spirit of air and this world

They will put the witnesses to death
Yet God will not forsake or leave them
They will rise and go up to Heaven
Men of this world will be filled with fear
Yet they are stubborn and with a hard heart

Mankind is so stubborn
They have no fear in God
Yet have fear in the pleasure of this world
They bow to them and forsake God

Who would understand how grieve is God
Yet the Lord would turn it into wrath
He will put them in a place that
They would curse God forever
For they do not obey God

Repent, repent and repent
The time is near, very near
Do not let it caught you sleeping
Or you are not prepared

He is the Alpha and Omega
The beginning and the last
The witnesses would bear the name
With joy and pleasure and hope
No burden could be found on them
Be alert and prepared
For the time is near

Sacrifice?

2009-05-01T03:00:00.000-07:00

I was so strucked by something I had experienced just after returning from the one-day camp.

I would just have to say the story from the beginning. I was reading a book, "Message from God". If you wanted to read it, you could ask me about that. When I was reading it, I prayed that God would let me experience something so I might really shine for Him, be a great witness from Him.

Indeed, God did reply me. He replied me when I returned from the one-day camp. He asked to sacrifice something in order to serve Him and fulfill His will. I would so troubled with what God asked for.

But He added on, if I would agree, I could do much more of His work rather than what I was having now. In human's eye, I knew that of course sacrificing this important thing would just cause much more trouble. But with my faith, I said to Lord that I would let Him take it if I could really did much more of His work.

The Lord said that He would take it when it is at His time, not my time. He asked me to do what I could do with this thing I had now. I did not know what to do, I was fear. But I knew that, fear never come from God, for fear destroy love, so with this thought, I could overcome the fear now.

Wonderful Holiday

2009-05-01T02:45:00.001-07:00

It was a school holiday and my church, SBC had an One Day Worship Training Camp. At first, I had such a feeling - it was too long and I had to stay in church for around 8 hours, surely I would feel tired and weary. But man's thoughts are always foolish and untrue.

Well, the speakers were all from Hong Kong. They paid their on own for the flight to come all the way here, and I was really grateful that God had such faithful and obedient servants to work for Him. It was really a great blessing for SBC and me too.

Pastor Khor is such a funny speaker and his actions are making everyone think no of boring and dull. Everyone there was enjoying and learned a tons of new things that we never thought of and had time to discuss. Thank God. Tomorrow night would have a 2-hours class again, I was looking forward to it.

God is so good that He first loves us. What can I said? For Him:

Great are You My Lord
No word, no work, no deed can compare to thee
For You are the Lord, who created everything

How should I describe Thy greatness?
For everything comes from You and You only
Take my life, O Lord, for You gave it to me
I am to choose, to give it to the world or to You

O Lord of forgiveness, mercy and grace
Remember not my sins nor my disobedience
Let thy Son's blood flow into me
Redeems me, renew me and cleanse me

Praise and glory are Yours, O Lord
May goodness be with those who obey You
Let them dwell in Your house praising You forever

The Lord's message

2009-04-19T04:45:00.000-07:00

Today was a really great Sunday. Ah Miao had returned, and it had been quite some time since CNY. I was doing the LCD thing too, thank God everything went fine.

Well, today I before I went out to church, the LORD told me to "Take your tithes and give it to me". I was wondering, of course I would give it to Him, since I had prepared it on some days before Sunday. When I was on the journey on the way to church, I suddenly thought of that I had to pay for the photograph fee today, and a thought came in my mind: I could take the tithes to pay for it and gave the tithes next week. But soon, I remembered what the LORD had told me, so I decided to "ask kindly" from my sister instead of taking the tithes. Something much more strange happened, even though I gave the tithes during English Worship Service, but youth worship leader today, Pui Ling asked me to give thanks for the tithes. I am so glad that, the LORD always remind me or warn me before something displease Him would happen.

Reverse the clock a bit, when I was in church, I think I saw something when I closed my eyes. I saw that I was in a great mansion having a great feast. Then, I hugged His legs. Later, I ran out of the house and asked many people outside of the mansion to go in and join the feast. But I didn't return, I was sitting on the floor, very tired. Yet, the Master came and gave out his hands, and He let me had a ride on His back, and He carried me back.

I also saw that I was like a child, with a man behind me. I would have choose which way I wanted to walk. I could only see part of the path in front of me, yet the man could see the whole path. If I would have chosen a path with hole or danger, the man behind me would always put his hands on my shoulder and guide me, not by forcing, to walk on a safer way. (Of course I know what these two mean.)

Before I had my dinner, the LORD had told me to something to some friends of mine. Of course there were some difficulties. What the LORD asked me to SMS my friends were quite, erm foolish and unbelievable. But as far as I know, most testimonies come from brave action to follow the LORD, so I decided to do what the LORD would ask me. And it turned out well, one of them said she had to talk to me tomorrow, what could I say now? The LORD's message is always foolish in eyes of men, but it would bring success that no man could deny, just if and only if you dare to do it for the LORD. Dare to do it for the LORD?

Mix Content

2009-04-16T04:11:00.001-07:00

It is coming to the mid year exam... so stressed and burdened... but still can laugh, like a horse...
7 of classmates have gone to KK for an invention competition, our class is so quiet and peace. Haha, no offense here....

I can't believe something that I has been praying for a long time really happen, and two things happen at the same time! I am so glad and happy for a God that loves me so much. Even if you are not a Christian, try to pray and tell Him your thoughts, surely He will listen. If it is according to His will, surely He will fulfill it in the right time.

Thank God and God bless.

Prefects Camp

2009-03-29T00:18:00.000-07:00

I, Cason and Cynthia were doing the prepartion of the game "One Way" in Junior Block before the registration. The other AJKs were having their meeting in Senior Block. I was not an AJK but a service team member.

That night, I was in a station for the "Sung Siew Game On". It was a good station, but I together with Edward and Chiew, plus Ms.Lam had delayed the game till we had to deal with 4 groups at the same time. These 4 groups didn't manage to play it even though they had prepared to play it. Later, one participant hurt his left leg and one of us helped him up. He couldn't walk with his ownself but I and Ho lifted him up to the Boys Dorm.

AJKs were very exhausted.
This is a good example.

Appreciate what they had done.

The next day, we had a morning walk to the hill. Well, I was post to take care Group 9, the Spartans. Actually, they were a very good group and our way to the top, they were to sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star". They sang it very well and I was impressed. On top, they had some games which they enjoyed so much, I believed.

I, Cason, Low and Cynthia went down by having a ride on Ms.Lam to get back to school to prepare for the One Way. Elliot went down all the way on his feet. After preparing and a short briefing by Cason, it was the time for the One Way Game. They were "tortured" in a lot of ways. See the photos below. Overall, the game went well.

Attacked by flour.

The rope was "painted" with kaya.

Poured with water.

Distracted by "demons".

Need to go through "easy" obstacles.

On that night, we had "Ghost Night". At first, it would not seems to be so scary, but both AJKs and service team members did their job well, and scared them, Thank God, not to death. For me, I didn't think to scare anyone, but I just walked behind one person, I believe she heard me but when she turned her head, she screamed. Well, at least I managed to scare at least one person.

Later, we had a camp fire which was impressive, too. Every two groups performed once around the camp fire. But too bad, I only managed to watch one performance and I went to sleep. When I was made awake, it was the time to have Halangan Komando. I and Siah were paired as a group for one station. The station was to trian their fitness, but Siah thought that we could not just ask them to run for few founds without ant reason. So, we made it a footdrill training. If they made a mistake, we could kindly ask them to run a few rounds.

On the last day morning, it was the closing ceremony and I don't think I have much to say about it. It was just like a normal one. One thing struck all the AJKs, the comments from the groups were all good, even the food. AJKs were so glad to hear that.

But before the ceremony, it was the cleaning time. Below are some photos I caught when I walked around. Yes, I WALKED AROUND.

On the side of Senior Block,

You really think they were cleaning up the floor?

Are you sure?

No! They were hockeying

with a water balloon.

Lol.

On the side of Junior Block,

Participants were to clean up the school.

He could not bear any stress again and want to...

And it looked like nobody cares about him.

Actually he was trying to unclog the hole.

So, he had to climbed over the fences.

And that's it, I went straight home after that, and took a nap.

Sorry for delayed post...

2009-03-24T07:07:00.000-07:00

Well well, I have not been putting any post lately, sorry about that...

So, I had my birthday celebration on 3/3 which I enjoyed a lot and grateful to God.
Continue on, I had a really really indescribable experience with God, and I am being gifted by Him too... Really wanna hug Him... Haha... I know I can do that in Heaven...

Follow on, I remembered that I fell into THAT temptation once again... I know demons must have been having a party during that time, but I believe when I repent, they would call off the party and start a meeting right away, I wonder, if demon repent, will God accept it? haha

And lastly, I really want to tell everyone, God does listen to our prayer, what makes me say that? I prayed for a long time to have my mum to meet Him, and of course, He showed the way to mum and she just can't say no to this wonderful Savior... Can you think of a word to praise God about that? I really can't think of any word...

That's all, short and sweet... Halleluyah

Well Day

2009-02-28T07:44:00.000-08:00

We had a dinner in a restaurant named Taste, which I told them it was Delicious XD
After that, we went for a horror movie "They wait", i think... It was not the scary and we managed to have a good time together... It was a good day, hoping to have some more times together... :)

Pain!

2009-02-25T04:09:00.000-08:00

Arrrgghhhh.... I m having a sorethroat now.. It is very painful and my voice like a girl's. I didnt go to school today and "rest" at home... Haha... I know it will get well soon becoz, the pain is vanishing.. Hope my voice won't be affected though...

Loser wins?

2009-02-25T04:02:00.000-08:00

Well, I went for a international chess competition on last Tuesday in Telupid. Before every match started, I would pray that God's will would be done (even it might seems nth to do with God). On the fourth and fifth matches, I lost =(

I was the 7th in the ranking system but only the first sixth would represent Sandakan to go for state level. And of course, it was a pain and sour experience to me. But on the way back, I learned that since God let me to lose, so I should have no worry or feel sad. So, I praised God all the way back. Hallelujah!

Erm... Shame

2009-02-08T07:30:00.000-08:00

Well, it is the same temptation and I fell for it... Shame... It is very hard to listen to Jesus and follow Him... Well, trying to ignore my life of sins and hiding, yet He saw me... I felt so guilty becoz I can hear Him when I am falling into Satan's trap... I am so grateful that today youth message talks about Choices.
Yes, choices are hard to be made but the question is, is the choice you choose obeying God? If yes, then the will of God will be revealed. If not, then you are juz getting away from God. It is EXTREMELY hard to follow God with all these temptations...
Well, I would really like to thank God, becoz He is so faithful and best, for no one is better than Him.

WoW!

2009-02-03T04:13:00.000-08:00

Oh... It is school life again... After a week of CNY holidays and resting, time to return to school... But for today, the Excel test has come to an end yet the result will really be my end. During CNY holidays, I visited my relatives and my friends. Of course, I did bet during that time.

In my friend house on Thursday, I lose RM40++, ouch... But thank God, I won some and it covered up my loss for around RM20++... I knew that God would not like me to gamble, but yet, He comforted me by not letting me to lose that much =) Praise God for caring me...

Well, until today, I still can feel God's love and caring over me. Whenever I trust in His words, He will never forget His promises and fulfills them. It is only a matter of time of course... We need to believe time will reveal anything because, time is a chess piece for God to show Himself.

Well, thank God for everything He has given to me and will give me... Lols... Hallelujah

God's glory

2009-01-24T04:05:00.000-08:00

Even though I do not actually see God with my own eyes but this morning, I felt into a temptation which I at least fell in once a week. I would always promise God not to repeat the same mistake again, but I failed.

I felt God's true glory this evening, maybe only a part from the real. It is amazing, wonderful and speechless. When it comes to my sense, I can only feel energyless in me. I have nothing to say but sorry to God. It comes to my mind that God does not punish us for what have we done but He send His son to die for us and to take our sins. Whenever I think about this, I am speechless.

I hope that everyone will really know God's glory and power. It is not too late to repent now but it will be useless if it is Judgement Day.

At last...

2009-01-24T04:03:00.000-08:00

It is holiday again... I have been very exhausted and tired for the few past weeks... Problems keep on coming like waves but I am glad, it is an one-week-holiday for me to rest. There are quite some planning for me duing this CNY holiday week... Wish everyone will have a blessed Chinese New Year!

School Life

2009-01-11T22:03:00.000-08:00

There had been something happened in school even though it is just a short week. Many things have to be done since old assignments does not finish yet new assignments added in. There are also some problem concerning friendship occur around me. Some are like hiding themselves from me and some are like troubled by problems.

It is always a wonderful times to be with your friends no matter how they are like. Getting know each other more is much more interesting. If everyone is just like me, I do not know what is friend exists for. Thank God for letting me know much friends even though some I may not like.

God's wonderful leading

2009-01-04T21:49:00.000-08:00

In the song named "God will make a way", there is a line that says " He works in ways, we cannot see". God does work in a way that we cannot see, but we can realize that it is only something that can be done by God and not by any luck or coincidence.

When I was still a kid back then, my kindergarten was Sandakan Baptist Church. This church has a kindergarten and all my siblings studied there too. During that time, I had the chance to know God because teachers there were telling me stories about Jesus. I ever thought of becoming a Christian and I asked my mum, but she said "no", so I did not accept Christ that time. And once, my sister, who was a Christian during that time, led me to pray to accept Jesus as my savior but during that time, I did not fully understand what "sins", "savior" and all these stuffs mean. Soon, I forgot this moment of praying.

After six years out from kindergarten, I was twelve years old and was in the last year of my primary school, which is Primary 6. I happened to be very close with a friend named Jeff Lee since Primary 4. We always played together with some other friends. One day, we happened to talk about how would the world end. He told me that according to Holy Bible, there will be disasters and there will be a kind of monster attacking mankind. Only those who accepted Christ would have a mark that can be seen by this monster and can avoid from this attack. I believed what he said and was very fear that time. But after some days and weeks, I forgot about all these things he told me.

One day when I was in Form 3(Secondary School), I was in my school canteen when it is Health and Physical Education periods and our class was to play a soccer game. Since I did not bring my sport t-shirt, so I did not join the game but sitting in school canteen just besides where my other classmates played soccer. When watching my friends playing, the canteen auntie sit besides me and read newspaper.

Suddenly, she spoke with me. She spoke of her daughter working herself and giving 10% of her income to her mother and another 10% to God. During that time, I was not a Christian yet so I thought she was saying that her daughter was giving her money in temple. I thought of this practice is good and "learnable".

After joining Lost camp, I accepted Christ. Even though all these experiences might seems to be no help for me to accept Christ. Yet, until today, when I recalled, I canl see that how great is He. They may not help me to be saved, but these things, they become the foundation of my faith today. They show me that God is there, every moment, even when you do not notice it.

All these experiences were just something God had done to lead me home. He never give up on me ever since I was still a kid. What I can said is that, God loves everyone and will lead everyone to Heaven, only if you are willing. I do not know how stubborn is me to accept Him after much He did, but I thank God for Holy Spirit melted my heart and I accepted Christ, truly before my time on earth end. For me, He lead me in a wonderful way. I believe He will do the same things to everyone of us. You can choose to accept Him and rejoicing, praising and living in Heaven forever. You can choose to reject Him and suffer, regret in Hell. Times to make an IMPORTANT decision NOW.

I do not how many times you rejected Him, but what if you were not there anymore in the next minute?

Why Zeon?

2009-01-03T01:17:00.000-08:00

Just right before a week joining Lost camp, a youth camp that I accepted Christ, a name "Zeon" came into my mind out of a blue. I was playing a game back then, called Chrono Trigger, a very old SNES game. I came into an item named Aeon Suit and the word "Zeon" came into my mind.

Later, when I went to bath, an urge came into my mind and I decided to use it as my name. I did not know what is the meaning of this name. I just thought that it was quite a cool name for me as among all the 26 alphabets, I love most consonant "Z". As the days passed by, I used this name in games, website and etc.

Until recently, I had been teased for this name. Zeon, when pronounce in a Cantonese way, it does sound like, "naming yourself". Thanks to that and to God, many know this name now. Eyen, leader of our youth bible studies group, told me that my name was the name of a Sun God, i think, because thinking something else that time.

Whenever I think about the timing of this name appeared and the time I found Jesus, I think it was not a coincidence at all but work of Holy Spirit. Until today, I decided to search for its meaning. Surprisingly, hot water that was poured into a chalice, a holy cup, was known as zeon or living water! It was used to symbolize the fervor or heat of faith, the descendant of the Holy Spirit or to commemorate the water that flowed from the crucified Christ's side when pierced by the spear! A name with three symbols remembering and honoring God, how would I say "no" when God want it to be mine?

I found Jesus, who lead me to Him.

2009-01-03T00:18:00.000-08:00

There was a youth camp named Lost organized by Sandakan Baptist Church on May 2007. On the message section, Pastor Yong asked this similar question and it stroke my mind. I realized that I did not the answer. As the preacher continued on, I found out no matter what I am doing, as long it is not for God, it is just like catching the wind under the sun. Riches, fame, power, status and man's praises, they will fade away as you died.

Pastor Yong gave an illustration. Hold a piece of one-dollar in your hand and put it some distance in front of your eyes. If the money becomes your top priority, it is just like you shorten the distance between the money and your eyes. The money will eventually cover up your vision and you only see money, ignoring friendship, family and etc. This is how we see our lives. Yet, Jesus is just like a glass for us because we are having eye disease. This piece of glass will make your vision become clearer if you put it nearer to your eyes!

Pastor Yong read out a verse in John 14:6. It says Jesus answered, " I am the way, the truth and the life. No one come to the Father except through me." After that, I asked Tom, a helper in the camp, "why you illustrate Jesus as glass?". He redirected me to ask Pastor Yong himself and the answer I get is, Worldly things will fade away, yet Jesus will show you something that never fade, eternal life. Later, Tom called me into his room, with two other campers as well, he shared the gospel with us, but I didn't listen much that night but kept thinking about the message.

The next morning, Tina, another helper in camp, shared gospel with me too. That time, I felt like wanted to accept Christ but my fear and insecurity control me. A few hours later, Tom said he wanted to have some word with me privately, so we found a place. And he asked me whether I want to accept Jesus as my personal savior. An urge in me prompted me to say "yes" and surprisingly, fear and insecurity were replaced by peace and confidence. I said "yes". After a prayer to Jesus, I felt nothing special. Tom asked me to remember this special date, 31/5/2007.

On that night, I felt something. I have found myself second family, even it is not blood-bonded, yet it is a family that I can be with in Heaven. I found peace and joy. I worshiped God that night unlike the night before which I did not want to sing praise to God.

Until today , I can feel that He is always there and being with me. Streams of peace and joy always flow into my heart. I am glad, I found Jesus, who lead me to Him.