Even though I do not actually see God with my own eyes but this morning, I felt into a temptation which I at least fell in once a week. I would always promise God not to repeat the same mistake again, but I failed.
I felt God's true glory this evening, maybe only a part from the real. It is amazing, wonderful and speechless. When it comes to my sense, I can only feel energyless in me. I have nothing to say but sorry to God. It comes to my mind that God does not punish us for what have we done but He send His son to die for us and to take our sins. Whenever I think about this, I am speechless.
I hope that everyone will really know God's glory and power. It is not too late to repent now but it will be useless if it is Judgement Day.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
At last...
It is holiday again... I have been very exhausted and tired for the few past weeks... Problems keep on coming like waves but I am glad, it is an one-week-holiday for me to rest. There are quite some planning for me duing this CNY holiday week... Wish everyone will have a blessed Chinese New Year!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
School Life
There had been something happened in school even though it is just a short week. Many things have to be done since old assignments does not finish yet new assignments added in. There are also some problem concerning friendship occur around me. Some are like hiding themselves from me and some are like troubled by problems.
It is always a wonderful times to be with your friends no matter how they are like. Getting know each other more is much more interesting. If everyone is just like me, I do not know what is friend exists for. Thank God for letting me know much friends even though some I may not like.
It is always a wonderful times to be with your friends no matter how they are like. Getting know each other more is much more interesting. If everyone is just like me, I do not know what is friend exists for. Thank God for letting me know much friends even though some I may not like.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
God's wonderful leading
In the song named "God will make a way", there is a line that says " He works in ways, we cannot see". God does work in a way that we cannot see, but we can realize that it is only something that can be done by God and not by any luck or coincidence.
When I was still a kid back then, my kindergarten was Sandakan Baptist Church. This church has a kindergarten and all my siblings studied there too. During that time, I had the chance to know God because teachers there were telling me stories about Jesus. I ever thought of becoming a Christian and I asked my mum, but she said "no", so I did not accept Christ that time. And once, my sister, who was a Christian during that time, led me to pray to accept Jesus as my savior but during that time, I did not fully understand what "sins", "savior" and all these stuffs mean. Soon, I forgot this moment of praying.
After six years out from kindergarten, I was twelve years old and was in the last year of my primary school, which is Primary 6. I happened to be very close with a friend named Jeff Lee since Primary 4. We always played together with some other friends. One day, we happened to talk about how would the world end. He told me that according to Holy Bible, there will be disasters and there will be a kind of monster attacking mankind. Only those who accepted Christ would have a mark that can be seen by this monster and can avoid from this attack. I believed what he said and was very fear that time. But after some days and weeks, I forgot about all these things he told me.
One day when I was in Form 3(Secondary School), I was in my school canteen when it is Health and Physical Education periods and our class was to play a soccer game. Since I did not bring my sport t-shirt, so I did not join the game but sitting in school canteen just besides where my other classmates played soccer. When watching my friends playing, the canteen auntie sit besides me and read newspaper.
Suddenly, she spoke with me. She spoke of her daughter working herself and giving 10% of her income to her mother and another 10% to God. During that time, I was not a Christian yet so I thought she was saying that her daughter was giving her money in temple. I thought of this practice is good and "learnable".
After joining Lost camp, I accepted Christ. Even though all these experiences might seems to be no help for me to accept Christ. Yet, until today, when I recalled, I canl see that how great is He. They may not help me to be saved, but these things, they become the foundation of my faith today. They show me that God is there, every moment, even when you do not notice it.
All these experiences were just something God had done to lead me home. He never give up on me ever since I was still a kid. What I can said is that, God loves everyone and will lead everyone to Heaven, only if you are willing. I do not know how stubborn is me to accept Him after much He did, but I thank God for Holy Spirit melted my heart and I accepted Christ, truly before my time on earth end. For me, He lead me in a wonderful way. I believe He will do the same things to everyone of us. You can choose to accept Him and rejoicing, praising and living in Heaven forever. You can choose to reject Him and suffer, regret in Hell. Times to make an IMPORTANT decision NOW.
I do not how many times you rejected Him, but what if you were not there anymore in the next minute?
When I was still a kid back then, my kindergarten was Sandakan Baptist Church. This church has a kindergarten and all my siblings studied there too. During that time, I had the chance to know God because teachers there were telling me stories about Jesus. I ever thought of becoming a Christian and I asked my mum, but she said "no", so I did not accept Christ that time. And once, my sister, who was a Christian during that time, led me to pray to accept Jesus as my savior but during that time, I did not fully understand what "sins", "savior" and all these stuffs mean. Soon, I forgot this moment of praying.
After six years out from kindergarten, I was twelve years old and was in the last year of my primary school, which is Primary 6. I happened to be very close with a friend named Jeff Lee since Primary 4. We always played together with some other friends. One day, we happened to talk about how would the world end. He told me that according to Holy Bible, there will be disasters and there will be a kind of monster attacking mankind. Only those who accepted Christ would have a mark that can be seen by this monster and can avoid from this attack. I believed what he said and was very fear that time. But after some days and weeks, I forgot about all these things he told me.
One day when I was in Form 3(Secondary School), I was in my school canteen when it is Health and Physical Education periods and our class was to play a soccer game. Since I did not bring my sport t-shirt, so I did not join the game but sitting in school canteen just besides where my other classmates played soccer. When watching my friends playing, the canteen auntie sit besides me and read newspaper.
Suddenly, she spoke with me. She spoke of her daughter working herself and giving 10% of her income to her mother and another 10% to God. During that time, I was not a Christian yet so I thought she was saying that her daughter was giving her money in temple. I thought of this practice is good and "learnable".
After joining Lost camp, I accepted Christ. Even though all these experiences might seems to be no help for me to accept Christ. Yet, until today, when I recalled, I canl see that how great is He. They may not help me to be saved, but these things, they become the foundation of my faith today. They show me that God is there, every moment, even when you do not notice it.
All these experiences were just something God had done to lead me home. He never give up on me ever since I was still a kid. What I can said is that, God loves everyone and will lead everyone to Heaven, only if you are willing. I do not know how stubborn is me to accept Him after much He did, but I thank God for Holy Spirit melted my heart and I accepted Christ, truly before my time on earth end. For me, He lead me in a wonderful way. I believe He will do the same things to everyone of us. You can choose to accept Him and rejoicing, praising and living in Heaven forever. You can choose to reject Him and suffer, regret in Hell. Times to make an IMPORTANT decision NOW.
I do not how many times you rejected Him, but what if you were not there anymore in the next minute?
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Why Zeon?
Just right before a week joining Lost camp, a youth camp that I accepted Christ, a name "Zeon" came into my mind out of a blue. I was playing a game back then, called Chrono Trigger, a very old SNES game. I came into an item named Aeon Suit and the word "Zeon" came into my mind.
Later, when I went to bath, an urge came into my mind and I decided to use it as my name. I did not know what is the meaning of this name. I just thought that it was quite a cool name for me as among all the 26 alphabets, I love most consonant "Z". As the days passed by, I used this name in games, website and etc.
Until recently, I had been teased for this name. Zeon, when pronounce in a Cantonese way, it does sound like, "naming yourself". Thanks to that and to God, many know this name now. Eyen, leader of our youth bible studies group, told me that my name was the name of a Sun God, i think, because thinking something else that time.
Whenever I think about the timing of this name appeared and the time I found Jesus, I think it was not a coincidence at all but work of Holy Spirit. Until today, I decided to search for its meaning. Surprisingly, hot water that was poured into a chalice, a holy cup, was known as zeon or living water! It was used to symbolize the fervor or heat of faith, the descendant of the Holy Spirit or to commemorate the water that flowed from the crucified Christ's side when pierced by the spear! A name with three symbols remembering and honoring God, how would I say "no" when God want it to be mine?
Later, when I went to bath, an urge came into my mind and I decided to use it as my name. I did not know what is the meaning of this name. I just thought that it was quite a cool name for me as among all the 26 alphabets, I love most consonant "Z". As the days passed by, I used this name in games, website and etc.
Until recently, I had been teased for this name. Zeon, when pronounce in a Cantonese way, it does sound like, "naming yourself". Thanks to that and to God, many know this name now. Eyen, leader of our youth bible studies group, told me that my name was the name of a Sun God, i think, because thinking something else that time.
Whenever I think about the timing of this name appeared and the time I found Jesus, I think it was not a coincidence at all but work of Holy Spirit. Until today, I decided to search for its meaning. Surprisingly, hot water that was poured into a chalice, a holy cup, was known as zeon or living water! It was used to symbolize the fervor or heat of faith, the descendant of the Holy Spirit or to commemorate the water that flowed from the crucified Christ's side when pierced by the spear! A name with three symbols remembering and honoring God, how would I say "no" when God want it to be mine?
I found Jesus, who lead me to Him.
There was a youth camp named Lost organized by Sandakan Baptist Church on May 2007. On the message section, Pastor Yong asked this similar question and it stroke my mind. I realized that I did not the answer. As the preacher continued on, I found out no matter what I am doing, as long it is not for God, it is just like catching the wind under the sun. Riches, fame, power, status and man's praises, they will fade away as you died.
Pastor Yong gave an illustration. Hold a piece of one-dollar in your hand and put it some distance in front of your eyes. If the money becomes your top priority, it is just like you shorten the distance between the money and your eyes. The money will eventually cover up your vision and you only see money, ignoring friendship, family and etc. This is how we see our lives. Yet, Jesus is just like a glass for us because we are having eye disease. This piece of glass will make your vision become clearer if you put it nearer to your eyes!
Pastor Yong read out a verse in John 14:6. It says Jesus answered, " I am the way, the truth and the life. No one come to the Father except through me." After that, I asked Tom, a helper in the camp, "why you illustrate Jesus as glass?". He redirected me to ask Pastor Yong himself and the answer I get is, Worldly things will fade away, yet Jesus will show you something that never fade, eternal life. Later, Tom called me into his room, with two other campers as well, he shared the gospel with us, but I didn't listen much that night but kept thinking about the message.
The next morning, Tina, another helper in camp, shared gospel with me too. That time, I felt like wanted to accept Christ but my fear and insecurity control me. A few hours later, Tom said he wanted to have some word with me privately, so we found a place. And he asked me whether I want to accept Jesus as my personal savior. An urge in me prompted me to say "yes" and surprisingly, fear and insecurity were replaced by peace and confidence. I said "yes". After a prayer to Jesus, I felt nothing special. Tom asked me to remember this special date, 31/5/2007.
On that night, I felt something. I have found myself second family, even it is not blood-bonded, yet it is a family that I can be with in Heaven. I found peace and joy. I worshiped God that night unlike the night before which I did not want to sing praise to God.
Until today , I can feel that He is always there and being with me. Streams of peace and joy always flow into my heart. I am glad, I found Jesus, who lead me to Him.
Pastor Yong gave an illustration. Hold a piece of one-dollar in your hand and put it some distance in front of your eyes. If the money becomes your top priority, it is just like you shorten the distance between the money and your eyes. The money will eventually cover up your vision and you only see money, ignoring friendship, family and etc. This is how we see our lives. Yet, Jesus is just like a glass for us because we are having eye disease. This piece of glass will make your vision become clearer if you put it nearer to your eyes!
Pastor Yong read out a verse in John 14:6. It says Jesus answered, " I am the way, the truth and the life. No one come to the Father except through me." After that, I asked Tom, a helper in the camp, "why you illustrate Jesus as glass?". He redirected me to ask Pastor Yong himself and the answer I get is, Worldly things will fade away, yet Jesus will show you something that never fade, eternal life. Later, Tom called me into his room, with two other campers as well, he shared the gospel with us, but I didn't listen much that night but kept thinking about the message.
The next morning, Tina, another helper in camp, shared gospel with me too. That time, I felt like wanted to accept Christ but my fear and insecurity control me. A few hours later, Tom said he wanted to have some word with me privately, so we found a place. And he asked me whether I want to accept Jesus as my personal savior. An urge in me prompted me to say "yes" and surprisingly, fear and insecurity were replaced by peace and confidence. I said "yes". After a prayer to Jesus, I felt nothing special. Tom asked me to remember this special date, 31/5/2007.
On that night, I felt something. I have found myself second family, even it is not blood-bonded, yet it is a family that I can be with in Heaven. I found peace and joy. I worshiped God that night unlike the night before which I did not want to sing praise to God.
Until today , I can feel that He is always there and being with me. Streams of peace and joy always flow into my heart. I am glad, I found Jesus, who lead me to Him.
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