At Last....

I used to fall into the same trap again and again. I knew I should stop doing it as the Lord would be sad and could not serve Him with that, but I kept on failing. I prayed to God many times for strength and wisdom and self-control, but I never succeed. Only until this moment, I did it. It was so wonderful and sweet that you could please the One you love and make Him smile. I do not know whether I should fall into the same pit or not, but I know, God has made a way for me to pass through it.

When I was listening to the song "I am coming back to the heart of worship". I saw that I was in a place like there was nothing. I knew who I was looking for. I was looking for Jesus, and what was on my hand was a little, tiny and mini gift box. Its size was just as big as a dice. Well, I saw Him later, I had nothing to give Him except the gift, but I was too ashamed to give Him. I turned my body and said that the gift was too small and it was not right to give Him. But He opened His palm and asked to me to give Him. I refused. He kept on asking me for it. At last, I gave Him. I kneel before Him and cried.

I could not imagine that how much love did He have to do so, it was so wonderful and sweet. I hugged Him and He said everything was okay and needed not to worry more. And that is how beautiful God is. I know His plan for me, and I have decided to do it, even though it costs me everything I have.